Tag Archives: Widow

Moving forward, not moving on.

Posted on August 26, 2019 by

So the week I move has finally arrived. My gosh. I cannot tell you how difficult it has been. The day I found out the completion date I cried all day long. I was a wreck, the limbo I have … Continue reading →

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This and that…

Posted on July 20, 2019 by

Gone back and forth whether it is wise to write my blog at this current moment… juries still out and I’m not waiting for them to come back in so… I recognise it is a highly turbulent week ahead with … Continue reading →

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Head Space. (Very Long post)

Posted on July 10, 2019 by

The last month or so has been full on. I have been in three different countries (if you count The Vatican as a separate country, which it does). I have worked the most since John passed away, I have had … Continue reading →

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Profound Loneliness

Posted on June 22, 2019 by

Yesterday I spoke to someone about the loneliness I have felt, and I realised I can handle about 90 percent of it pretty well, it’s the 10 percent that is profound loneliness that I cannot. Nothing touches it. Nothing. No … Continue reading →

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Ciao!

Posted on June 12, 2019 by

Tonight is the eve of what should be our 10th wedding anniversary. I write this from St Peters Square in Rome. Couldn’t face waking up tomorrow in the house knowing we should be celebrating so spontaneously treated myself to a … Continue reading →

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My Autobiography (of my life with God) by someone else.

Posted on May 20, 2019 by

I discovered a song by Nichole Nordeman a few weeks ago and it is almost as if she wrote the autobiography of my life with God with it. It’s such deep theology in it, it’s left me floored.  Anyway here … Continue reading →

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Same Place, different story.

Posted on April 16, 2019 by

Yesterday I went to a service at Manchester Cathedral. I knew it was around this time of year that I posted this blog post – https://vickmcq.com/2017/04/19/flawed/ in 2017, what I hadn’t realised was it was on exactly the same week! … Continue reading →

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Hoping.

Posted on April 5, 2019 by

Nearly wrote the title of this post as hopping, those of you who know the footprints poem joke about hopping will appreciate the irony. I don’t want to put the horse before the cart, but maybe, slightly, almost-ish, I might … Continue reading →

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All out.

Posted on February 14, 2019 by

A couple of months ago I was chatting to someone and I remarked that even when I feel I can cry no more still more tears come. However I have finally reached the stage where there are no more tears … Continue reading →

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Is this really happening?

Posted on February 1, 2019 by

Just signed the estate agents document for them to put the house on the market. Cried my eyes out. Sobbed through morning prayer and was glad I was alone doing it, that wasn’t nice for anyone to witness. Now feel … Continue reading →

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