Tag Archives: Faith

3 boxes.

Posted on May 25, 2022 by vickmcq

Imagine 3 separate boxes. These are the boxes where I contain my grief. Let me explain. The first box is where I hold memories and thoughts of John that are too painful or traumatic to think about and talk about … Continue reading →

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Pain, confidence, fragility and faith

Posted on March 30, 2022 by vickmcq

So after having a searing pain in the top back of my thigh I ended up at an emergency Doctors at 2am on Saturday morning. Turns out its a trapped nerve, thankfully not a blood clot like they suspected. I … Continue reading →

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I don’t know.

Posted on July 14, 2021 by vickmcq

Yesterday while out walking the dogs I bumped into someone (not literally, social distancing et al.) from church who I haven’t seen since March 2020. We had a little chat and at the end they said ‘Hope to see you … Continue reading →

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A ramble of different things.

Posted on October 16, 2020 by vickmcq

My Dad has been very poorly and was in hospital for 5 weeks. He is out now…apart from the hospital losing him for 2 hours over the weekend when they took him back in briefly. If I’m honest I don’t … Continue reading →

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Learning to breathe again.

Posted on July 26, 2020 by vickmcq

I’ve written a couple of times about how my faith has changed since John my husband died and then my sisters suicide a year and half later but I’ve been reflecting on it recently. I find myself thinking about how … Continue reading →

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“You’re not academic”

Posted on June 1, 2020 by vickmcq

Another essay in. I still have 2 to do this year that I had deferred from previous years due to bereavements. It’s honestly a miracle I’ve got this far and I’m so grateful to God everytime I hand an essay … Continue reading →

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Verbal Processing.

Posted on May 27, 2020 by vickmcq

To be fair I have done quite a lot of verb processing today, and yet, I feel I need to do more. (This may be the lockdown effect.) Some people say you shouldn’t process on a  blog for others to … Continue reading →

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Christmas time.

Posted on January 5, 2020 by vickmcq

The last day of the Christmas has arrived in the church calendar. Midnight Mass was beautiful, I cried even though I was serving but did it discreetly so no one saw, I was overwhelmed by the story of Jesus’ birth, … Continue reading →

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Leftover thoughts.

Posted on December 21, 2019 by vickmcq

A few thoughts following the last blog post. These thoughts actually started off as a thread of tweets but realised they could and probably should be a blog post. I have extended it a little too. a) My relationship with … Continue reading →

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Brutally Honest.

Posted on December 15, 2019 by vickmcq

Stand by your beds because it’s all about to come tumbling out. It’s been a hard week. I’ve faced a fair amount of pushback on social media for my political and theological beliefs, I also had therapy for the first … Continue reading →

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