Tag Archives: church

Lost

Even as I write I’m annoyed, frustrated, fed up and sad. Only lasted 35 mins at church. Didn’t even make the preaching. Started crying when I left my house. When I got to church and saw my friend outside absolutely … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, Faith, grief, loss | Tagged , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Complex

At church worship practice again. Trying to work my little complex self out. Every time I come to church I am just overwhelmed with sadness….but when music is played tears are unstoppable regardless of whether it’s upbeat or slow and … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, Faith, grief, loss | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Positive

Theology Degree Residential was AMAZING! The support I received there was overwhelming. People prayed with me, cried with me, laughed with me, talked with me, ate chocolate with me, checked on me, everyone was so kind. And that’s only all … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, Bible, Faith, grief, Life, loss, Perseverance | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Complicated attending Part 2

Cried all the way to church today. Cried when I arrived, cried through the worship, and when I really cry, tears come even when I’m not crying… that’s a bit weird. Cried during the announcements as they announced something that … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, grief, loss | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Complicated attending.

6 months today John went home to be with the Lord. And no it’s not easier, possibly harder, maybe just different. Sunday means church. I want to enjoy church but I don’t, I really don’t, it’s like when I walk … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, Faith, grief, loss | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Riding. 

Last day of conference today. While it has been extremely hard at times I am SO glad I came. Being with people has helped me immensely. I have truly been riding on people’s prayers and God’s grace. There’s NO WAY … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, Faith, grief, loss, Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Undeniables

Here in LA at my churches 50th year anniversary conference. Had lots of time to think about things. And I have been thinking about how even though yes I have questioned God fiercely and deeply regarding why John died and … Continue reading

Posted in Bereavement, Faith, grief, loss, Victory Outreach | Tagged , , , , , | Leave a comment