Category Archives: loss

“You’re not academic”

Posted on June 1, 2020 by

Another essay in. I still have 2 to do this year that I had deferred from previous years due to bereavements. It’s honestly a miracle I’ve got this far and I’m so grateful to God everytime I hand an essay … Continue reading →

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Kindness

Posted on March 9, 2020 by

It wasn’t someone shouting at me that my beliefs were wrong that drew me to The Lord. It wasn’t someone screaming at me that I was ‘going to hell’ that drew me to The Lord. It wasn’t someone quoting Bible … Continue reading →

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Chinks of light.

Posted on February 9, 2020 by

Phew. The third-year anniversary of John’s death is over. It was so hard this year. Every day since John died I have got out of bed straight away when I’ve been awake but twice in the last month I haven’t … Continue reading →

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Christmas time.

Posted on January 5, 2020 by

The last day of the Christmas has arrived in the church calendar. Midnight Mass was beautiful, I cried even though I was serving but did it discreetly so no one saw, I was overwhelmed by the story of Jesus’ birth, … Continue reading →

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Leftover thoughts.

Posted on December 21, 2019 by

A few thoughts following the last blog post. These thoughts actually started off as a thread of tweets but realised they could and probably should be a blog post. I have extended it a little too. a) My relationship with … Continue reading →

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This and that.

Posted on November 29, 2019 by

Haven’t written for a while. Life’s been trickling on steadily. Settling into the flat ok, Alfie and Eric my Yorkies are happy. It’s a difficult week this week, it should have been Mum’s Birthday a few days ago and it … Continue reading →

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Ruined but onward.

Posted on October 16, 2019 by

Yesterday, as I was in Warwickshire visiting my sister, I made a trip to Coventry Cathedral. I absolutely love that place, I always have done since I was a kid. One of the highlights of my life was working (and … Continue reading →

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Ramblings of authenticity.

Posted on October 11, 2019 by

Firstly let me apologise for the length of this post. Please don’t read it if it’s too long for you. I know I look at some blog post and think, “ain’t got time for that”.  I totally ramble on and … Continue reading →

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And….relax… (or at least try)

Posted on September 22, 2019 by

My third week since moving. People keep asking me if I have settled in, which seems like a strange question to be asked so early. Can you settle into somewhere straight away after living somewhere else for 10 years? Not … Continue reading →

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Stealing a moment for reflection

Posted on September 3, 2019 by

This is genuinely the first moment I have had to reflect and write in the last week (When I haven’t been too tired). What a week. It’s felt like a whole year has past by. Packing up the house required … Continue reading →

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