Category Archives: Life

Ruined but onward.

Posted on October 16, 2019 by

Yesterday, as I was in Warwickshire visiting my sister, I made a trip to Coventry Cathedral. I absolutely love that place, I always have done since I was a kid. One of the highlights of my life was working (and … Continue reading →

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Ramblings of authenticity.

Posted on October 11, 2019 by

Firstly let me apologise for the length of this post. Please don’t read it if it’s too long for you. I know I look at some blog post and think, “ain’t got time for that”.  I totally ramble on and … Continue reading →

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And….relax… (or at least try)

Posted on September 22, 2019 by

My third week since moving. People keep asking me if I have settled in, which seems like a strange question to be asked so early. Can you settle into somewhere straight away after living somewhere else for 10 years? Not … Continue reading →

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Stealing a moment for reflection

Posted on September 3, 2019 by

This is genuinely the first moment I have had to reflect and write in the last week (When I haven’t been too tired). What a week. It’s felt like a whole year has past by. Packing up the house required … Continue reading →

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Moving forward, not moving on.

Posted on August 26, 2019 by

So the week I move has finally arrived. My gosh. I cannot tell you how difficult it has been. The day I found out the completion date I cried all day long. I was a wreck, the limbo I have … Continue reading →

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This and that…

Posted on July 20, 2019 by

Gone back and forth whether it is wise to write my blog at this current moment… juries still out and I’m not waiting for them to come back in so… I recognise it is a highly turbulent week ahead with … Continue reading →

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Head Space. (Very Long post)

Posted on July 10, 2019 by

The last month or so has been full on. I have been in three different countries (if you count The Vatican as a separate country, which it does). I have worked the most since John passed away, I have had … Continue reading →

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Profound Loneliness

Posted on June 22, 2019 by

Yesterday I spoke to someone about the loneliness I have felt, and I realised I can handle about 90 percent of it pretty well, it’s the 10 percent that is profound loneliness that I cannot. Nothing touches it. Nothing. No … Continue reading →

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Ciao!

Posted on June 12, 2019 by

Tonight is the eve of what should be our 10th wedding anniversary. I write this from St Peters Square in Rome. Couldn’t face waking up tomorrow in the house knowing we should be celebrating so spontaneously treated myself to a … Continue reading →

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My Autobiography (of my life with God) by someone else.

Posted on May 20, 2019 by

I discovered a song by Nichole Nordeman a few weeks ago and it is almost as if she wrote the autobiography of my life with God with it. It’s such deep theology in it, it’s left me floored.  Anyway here … Continue reading →

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