Author Archives: vickmcq
Embracing the fear. (Relatively long post)
I’m going to begin this post with a quote from a 90’s girl band. “Water’s running in the wrong direction Got a feeling it’s a mixed up sign, I can see it in my own reflection Something funny’s going on … Continue reading
Space and time…
I can only speak for myself and where I am currently at but in situations where I struggle particularly where grief is involved, to feel safe, I need space. I was beginning to feel safe in church the past few … Continue reading
All over the gaff.
Haven’t written for quite a long time really. Not that I haven’t thought about it, or even mentally written for this blog, I have a few times, but I have either thought better of it or got distracted and forgotten them … Continue reading
Counselling
Do not write off having counselling as a ‘weak act’ or ‘how is talking going to help!’ it is one of the hardest but MOST beneficial things I have ever done. And really if I’m honest even though I’ve been … Continue reading
Subconscious
Back at the dentist. Never known physical pain like the past three days. Literally thought I was going to pass out at church yesterday. It is unbearable. Spoke to a retired dentist whose a friend of mine and worked specifically … Continue reading
Saturday nights
My t shirt is wet with the tears it has collected. It’s Saturday night. I can’t stand Saturday nights now, they are like glaring reminders of John’s absence. I loved Saturday nights with John, and he loved them too with … Continue reading
Unknown
Haven’t written for a little bit. Have had posts in my mind, but out thought them, if you know what I mean. The anniversary was strange, the days leading up to it were very dark, the day itself I was … Continue reading
