Author Archives: vickmcq

About vickmcq

A person trying to remember to blog!

Overload.

Posted on February 27, 2019

I am tired, I feel like I’m always in my head, constantly trying to work everything out and even when I’m not doing that I’m thinking about everything deeply. I can’t seem to chill out. It’s wrecking my head. I … Continue reading →

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All out.

Posted on February 14, 2019

A couple of months ago I was chatting to someone and I remarked that even when I feel I can cry no more still more tears come. However I have finally reached the stage where there are no more tears … Continue reading →

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Is this really happening?

Posted on February 1, 2019

Just signed the estate agents document for them to put the house on the market. Cried my eyes out. Sobbed through morning prayer and was glad I was alone doing it, that wasn’t nice for anyone to witness. Now feel … Continue reading →

Posted in Bereavement, grief, Life, loss, Uncategorized, Widow | Tagged Bereavement, Faith, grief, house, husband, life, loss, Prayer, sale, Widow | Leave a comment

Under pressure

Posted on January 16, 2019

Tomorrow is the inquest into my sister’s death. It’s been 6 months since she passed away, and really it’s still hitting me. The last week has been horrible. The pressure I feel at the moment in particular is unlike any … Continue reading →

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My broken certitude.

Posted on December 15, 2018

One of the many things that happened when John died was my certitude about things was smashed to pieces which if you have read through my blog I talk about a fair bit. The most worn out phrase I use … Continue reading →

Posted in Bereavement, Deconstruction, Faith, grief, Life, loss, Perseverance, Theology | Tagged alone, Bereavement, Bible, church, Faith, feelings, God, grief, Jesus, life, loneliness, lonely, Lord, loss, pain, Widow, widowed | Leave a comment

Scared.

Posted on December 4, 2018

Lyrics from a song can be so powerful and this one spoke so much to me: “I walk through desert plains here in the open range. Feel like a renegade looking to runaway. Here in the wilderness I’m coming face … Continue reading →

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Tidal Wave.

Posted on December 1, 2018

Yesterday was a day for reminiscing, I went back to the Cathedral I used to work in, and then I went to see my first Vicar and his wife who I adore and It was so good to catch up … Continue reading →

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