Author Archives: vickmcq

About vickmcq

A person trying to remember to blog!

Want I want.

Today feels like a strange day. Had to go the Accountants to sort some stuff out and hopefully the end is now in sight but there’s still a few hiccups that need sorting out. Got up early and walked the … Continue reading

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Embracing the fear. (Relatively long post)

I’m going to begin this post with a quote from a 90’s girl band. “Water’s running in the wrong direction Got a feeling it’s a mixed up sign, I can see it in my own reflection Something funny’s going on … Continue reading

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Space and time…

I can only speak for myself and where I am currently at but in situations where I struggle particularly where grief is involved, to feel safe, I need space. I was beginning to feel safe in church the past few … Continue reading

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All over the gaff.

Haven’t written for quite a long time really. Not that I haven’t thought about it, or even mentally written for this blog, I have a few times, but I have either thought better of it or got distracted and forgotten them … Continue reading

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Counselling

Do not write off having counselling as a ‘weak act’ or ‘how is talking going to help!’ it is one of the hardest but MOST beneficial things I have ever done. And really if I’m honest even though I’ve been … Continue reading

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Subconscious

Back at the dentist. Never known physical pain like the past three days. Literally thought I was going to pass out at church yesterday. It is unbearable. Spoke to a retired dentist whose a friend of mine and worked specifically … Continue reading

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Saturday nights

My t shirt is wet with the tears it has collected. It’s Saturday night. I can’t stand Saturday nights now, they are like glaring reminders of John’s absence. I loved Saturday nights with John, and he loved them too with … Continue reading

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