Author Archives: vickmcq

About vickmcq

A person trying to remember to blog!

Time, Rings, Tears and Things.

Posted on November 23, 2020

As I have mentioned previously time is such a strange concept this year. While chatting with my therapist last week we talked about how time is going fast and yet slow in equal measure. I cried a lot about John … Continue reading →

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The Struggles Real.

Posted on November 11, 2020

The other day I did something really scary. It’s something most Christians would never admit to doing. They wouldn’t admit it to themselves that they actually found this true let alone anyone else. After everything I have been through with … Continue reading →

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(Long) Snippets of the Vickster on the eve of Lockdown 2.0

Posted on November 4, 2020

I’m feeling the need to blog, however I am very tired, partly because I stayed up till 4:30am watching the America Election results and partly because of every other part of life since 2017…. so what comes out next might … Continue reading →

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A ramble of different things.

Posted on October 16, 2020

My Dad has been very poorly and was in hospital for 5 weeks. He is out now…apart from the hospital losing him for 2 hours over the weekend when they took him back in briefly. If I’m honest I don’t … Continue reading →

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A u-turn and a climb down.

Posted on September 3, 2020

A few months ago I wrote the following blog: https://vickmcq.com/2020/05/07/maybe-im-just-a-cynic/ If you haven’t read it basically I am cynical and scathing about the video that was released by a coalition of Churches across the UK. I bemoaned the fact that … Continue reading →

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I don’t know…do I?

Posted on August 21, 2020

This week has been one of those where I’m left wondering about so many different things. Have I got everything wrong? Do I know anything at all? What if I am wrong about certain things? What would that all mean? … Continue reading →

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Recounting my honest experience 20+ years later.

Posted on August 3, 2020

Having real problems sleeping at the moment, I know that some of this is grief, as it has been the run up to and the 2nd anniversary of my sister’s suicide plus what should be John’s 40th birthday is starting … Continue reading →

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Learning to breathe again.

Posted on July 26, 2020

I’ve written a couple of times about how my faith has changed since John my husband died and then my sisters suicide a year and half later but I’ve been reflecting on it recently. I find myself thinking about how … Continue reading →

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Bear with…

Posted on June 12, 2020

I am currently trying to improve my English language skills so that my essays (and this blog) are easier and more enjoyable to read. I am also learning about racism, feminism, and heterosexism so please bear with… I have a … Continue reading →

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“You’re not academic”

Posted on June 1, 2020

Another essay in. I still have 2 to do this year that I had deferred from previous years due to bereavements. It’s honestly a miracle I’ve got this far and I’m so grateful to God everytime I hand an essay … Continue reading →

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