Back at the dentist. Never known physical pain like the past three days. Literally thought I was going to pass out at church yesterday. It is unbearable. Spoke to a retired dentist whose a friend of mine and worked specifically on jaw pain and tension and he confirmed it’s anxiety related. It’s weird cause I don’t feel particularly anxious… it must be an subconscious thing. But how do you deal with something that is subconscious? Am I pretending to trust the Lord? Is it just words? And what does all that mean if so? What a strange cycle I am in. Subconsciously anxious which causes pain which makes me tense which makes the pain worse which then causes conscious anxiety which leads to tension, which causes pain and round we go. Kind a feel a bit sorry for my Bereavement counsellor tomorrow…. hoping The Lord and herself can help.