Monthly Archives: April 2017

In and out 

Enjoying being in Germany. My friends here are so lovely. Very grateful for them. The Pastor’s wife of the church here is an amazing lady. Had a good deep honest talk with her today. Was like taking a plaster off … Continue reading

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Feelings

At the airport waiting to board a flight to see some good friends in Frankfurt. A wise lady once told me “Feelings aren’t right or wrong, they just are” which is good cause I’m feeling awful right now. I can … Continue reading

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Hmmm…

Seem to be in deep thought mode, tinkering on the edge of something… not sure what. Feel like I need to get someone whose lost a spouse and is a Christian to read this blog so they can speak some … Continue reading

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Raw

At church. Want to run away. So painful. It feels like the enemy is screaming at me. “See she’s not even worshipping You God” “I knew she would forsake You one day” etc etc. Coming to church is like opening … Continue reading

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Don’t forget

Wednesday today, means prayer at church tonight. I know I should go but I have such a hard time when I am there really considering how not to go, and yet at the same time I want to be in … Continue reading

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Round and round

My sister is running the Manchester Marathon tomorrow in memory of John. So proud of her. So grateful for her. Been a up and down day. It’s like I’ve gone in circles today. Sad cause Johns not here, remembering times … Continue reading

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Going Out

Went out to church this evening. I always forget how hard it is when I go out, especially when I go to church. Don’t get me wrong I want to go church and I absolutely love seeing my Christian family … Continue reading

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