Monthly Archives: February 2017

Horrid

Such awful awful nightmares. Can’t believe how bad they are. Even though I’ve slept for 6 hours I feel totally exhausted upon waking up. Banging headache too. Also the feeling of loneliness is creeping up stronger and stronger. I know … Continue reading

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Dread

Can’t even say the things I have to do today. So horrible. I’m dreading it. Had a long sleep but the dreams were so frightening. Life without John is so dull, so so dull. The days are ridiculously long, and … Continue reading

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We were truly one.

Had to do some admin things today, not good. Could hardly speak when I rang the bank. Then the job centre was awful as they didn’t really know what I was therefore, even though on the phone I had been … Continue reading

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Job 16:6

” Yet if I speak, my pain is not relieved and if I refrain, it does not go away.” Job 16:6 Unbareable. I feel like every movement I make even the tiniest, is draining my soul of strength. The grief … Continue reading

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The valley of the shadow…

My beautiful, wonderful, amazing, generous, kind, gentle, thoughtful, talented, encouraging husband went to be with the Lord a week today. The pain is unbelievable. “If only my anguish could be weighed and all my misery be placed on the scales! … Continue reading

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