Monthly Archives: February 2017

Paperwork

Horrible admin tasks to face today, closing PayPal, sorting out the bank, amongst others. I’ve found that some companies are very clinical, some uncompassionate and some wonderful, LinkedIn were so good and easy. I hate paperwork as it is, but … Continue reading

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Hope they know….

Attempting to go church today. Can’t decide whether it’s the right thing to do or not, but at least if I try I’ll know. I just really hope everyone realises that I am different now… I am not the same … Continue reading

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Physical

Woken up this morning and actually feel like I’ve been run over. My chest feels like a 10 tonne weight was sat on my chest all night long. My back is in bits and my sciatica has returned randomly. My … Continue reading

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Ache

zwHaven’t been able to write, as haven’t known what to say. Still not sure now, all I know is this ache in the bottom of my belly gets stronger, then weakens, then comes back, then lessens, then gets stronger, then … Continue reading

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The weight of grief

The numbness is subsiding like quick sand, the weight of grief I am feeling it’s hard to even breathe. I know when I’m weak, God is strong but I’m all too aware of my weakness right now to feel anything … Continue reading

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Frustration 

Have sat on the sofa for 2 hours trying to get myself to cry, just so I feel something and it feels real. Had about 5 tears, that’s been all. I want to cry, I want to release something and … Continue reading

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?

Questions on my mind this morning. How can I cope with this? How can I navigate this? How can I continue? How can I honour God in this? What will I do? Where will I go?  John was my life, … Continue reading

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